my happy place?

i learnt a lot. so thank you.

heroes and theives

he's there in the dark
he waits in the wings
he's gotta play a part
trouble is a friend
yeah, trouble is a friend
of mine

what's with my disgrace?

It's like, you're all happy and elated and floating on candy-floss clouds when suddenly BANG! Life throws a freaking curve ball. Only imagine it's all fiery with flaming daggers shooting out of it. So you can't help but get shish-kebabed right down to your fluffy pink (keeping in theme with the candy-floss) socks. And they were very nice socks too, all things considered.

I should have listened but I was much too happy. Gah. And this happens just as I'm starting to drive well. Hello, Independence. Here I am, waving enthusiastically. But wait... I need you not anymore.

Right now, I feel like locking myself in my room and watching The Grudge. Because you can't survive Japanese evil. You can, Samara. So that's not so much fun.

I miss M and T
:(

teeth ground sharp and eyes glowing red

I thought this was gorgeous. Also, balloons make me happy. :)

a foxtrot above my head

I'm still groggy. Going to bed late and waking up late does that to me.

I have my registration tomorrow. Yup. It's that soon. Everything seems so final, y'know? Like at 8.00 tomorrow morning the rest of my life is pretty much set for me. I still don't know if this is what I want. But then again I'm not really sure about anything (ever) so I figured I should just go into it whole heartedly.

How cool would it be to be a witch doctor? =p The Princess and the Frog is coming out later this year. In December, me thinks. I can't wait. Disney hasn't come up with a princess movie in ages. Then next year there's Rapunzel to look forward too. I downloaded a copy of the Grimm's Fairy Tales. Apparently it's a direct translation of the original but blah... it's boring. I always imagined (somewhat romantically... and stupidly) that it would be sort of darker... creepier, maybe. It's not.

I really want to find a book of fairy tales like that described in John Connolly's The Book of Lost Things. Where the princess is captured by a warlock and made to dance for him every night until she dies. Only she comes back as a ghost and haunts him till he kills himself. That's even better than The Twelve Dancing Princesses, which was my favourite story when I was younger.

What happened to Linda Bergkvist? When is she going to publish her book?

how they danced in the courtyard

So yesterday I went shopping with Za. We spent like, hours taking off and putting on clothes and had some of the most interesting conversation meanwhile. Of paedophilic tendencies, Sarawak&Sicily, waxing, underwear, J&A, cousins, friends and er, more. Lots more but my mind seems to be drawing a blank right now. We agree on practically everything... except music. We also happen to have the same skinny ankles and similar (horrible) taste in boys.

An hour before we had to ciao home we found these adorable turquoise sorta flapper-y dresses. So we bought one each. And we'll probably wear them before she has to leave. Not out of the house or anything but just to take pictures for memories. =p

Oh my. It is HARD being vegetarian in Malaysia. But I only have until Sunday. :)

the fisherman fishes, the bakerman bakes

Oh yeah baby.

Jubilation was immediate
Happiness is forth
Celebration is imminent

And the bast part? I'll be celebrating with all my bestiest best friends.

Life is good. Even Snape's happy.

Well, kinda. He hasn't been told.

Now he knows.
Slanj!

bells that never sing

Jonah Hex strikes me as a very interesting character.

After I found out that Megan Fox is going to be in the movie I got all excited and started reading up about the comics.

Half of Jonah's face is grotesquely scarred because a heated tomahawk was pressed against it as punishment for fighting unfairly (in the eyes of the Indians). He is also apparently very mean and an alcoholic. He is therefore very much the antihero. I think the movie should be better than the comics as he has Megan (or Leila, as is her name in the movie) to make things all nice for him at the end of the day. His love life doesn't seem quite so blissful in the comics. All the women he loves seem to die or leave him.

The movie producers have made Jonah look more appealing in the movie. At least, this is what I have gathered from the few pictures I've seen of him on set. I suppose it's not to scare kids. And as awesome as Megan Fox seems to be, I doubt even she can stand too much of an exposed eyeball.

The antiheroes are always the most intriguing aren't they? The ones who are not at all good looking and have some sort of horrible past. They're not completely selfless and courageous (like say... Superman) but are doing good for selfish reason. There's V, who goes against a totalitarian government because he wants vengeance for what it did to him. Then there's Spike who got his soul back and then sacrificed himself for Buffy. And of course there's Snape.

Here I must digress, why WHY WHY was Snape so fat in HBP? He is supposed to be thin. Really thin. JKR even described him as gaunt, which makes sense. I don't exactly see Snape going around stuffing himself with chocolate frogs. He's more of an 'eat to live' sort of person. His hair should also be longer, lanker AND he needs to dress less like a priest. AND AND... gah. He just needs to be more like his description in the book. But Warner Bros doesn't seem to care about some minute details.

Dexter Morgan! How could I have almost forgotten him? Especially since I'm beginning to really enjoy Dexter. There's a definite stress in the anti of his antihero. A psychopathic, super intelligent serial killer. But you just can't help grow fond of Dexter and root for him.

Some people are not even remotely close to being heroes. Or even villains. So they can't be antiheroes can they? They're the extras. The ones with no lines, no background story and no interaction whatsoever with the gun-slinging bounty hunter. I don't like being mean but right now I can't be bothered. I failed my driving test and that has put me in a foul mood.

hbp is acomin'

Well, it's almost here. Just a couple more days of intense frustration. And then... pure HAPPINESS. :D Zhen and I are planning to dress up. Her in her Hogwartian gear and I in my Snape's not Evil! He's a huggly pink bunny! t-shirt. But uh, I don't know if we'll look odd or something. For Deathly Hallows, loads of people dressed up so we weren't so out of place. Okay, well not loads but a fair amount. Only, the book fans are more enthusiastic about these kinds of things and hence more dressy-uppy on such occasions. The fans who go for the movies... not so much.

Nvm, I have a couple of days to decide. :)

Scene's I'm especially looking forward too?

• Spinners End
• Slughorn's Party
• all the RW/LB/HG scenes
• the Weasley Wizard Wheezes
• Ginny's and Harry's kiss
• Voldy-the-kid
• RL/NT (hopefully the producers/directors did not cut out any integral bits from that relationship)
• the whole Sectumsempra! Roonil Wazlib bit
• "you don't have to call me 'Sir', Professor"
• Ron's "Excuse me, but are you the imprint of a departed soul?"
• Snape teaching DADA! *squeal* How awesome is that going to be? ^_^
• Luna's Gryffindor "hat"
• Luna commenting on the quidditch game. If they cut this out of the movie I'm going to blow an artery right there in the theater.
• All the bits with Snape in it. Except possibly the part where he Avada's Dumbledore's ass to the grave. :(

I can't wait :)

6ft 7in

Xander said, "I'm just going to go home, lie down, and listen to country music. The music of pain." I don't remember why, though. Possibly because Buffy was a-Slaying with Angel, and Willow and Oz had something on. It's odd because I've never ever felt like listening to country music when I'm all mopey. Or maybe he meant that country music causes pain.

Hm.

I realised yesterday that that the Lakers use my school colours. Or we use theirs. Purple and Yellow. Hee :)

I wish I were in Istanbul. After Sarawak, Vanu and I made (not quite definite) plans to travel the world. Next year... road trip. Every state in the country... minus Sabah and Sarawak. It's not quite the world but it's a start. She has wanted to visit Peru for as long as I can remember. Then I want to go to Egypt. And on a cruise down the Amazon River. Although, I don't know if they do that. The cruise, I mean. Plus we have to go to Alaska in the summer. In between all that we'll find the time to get us our MBBS's.

...

What would be the first thing you do if you had superpowers?

Well, what sort of superpowers are you talking 'bout?

Er, I dunno. Flying... mind-control... telekinesis... super-strength...

Save the world I guess.

Really?

No.
*pause*
I'd use 'em to get me all my A's.

Ah. And then?

FIND KOBE! :p

...

Yes, we all want stuff we can't have. Like how now, more than anything, I want cherries and nutella.

still in the valley

...because I'm trying to organise my thoughts.

1) Sarawak was loads and loads of fun. Funny, lovely people, no leech bites and so much food. The quantities that we consumed... honestly, I'm surprised I'm still able to walk from place to place and am not forced to use a buggy or whatever. I suppose all the trekking (and there were lots of it) balanced our gluttony. I flew all by myself, btw. How awesome is that? Took the correct flight and everything, and there was my dad panicking over how I would end up in Latvia or something.

2) Watched Transformers 2 twice. Both times in the theater, no less. First on Marcus's birthday and the second time my brother begged me to take him. But I didn't mind because, how beyond beautiful/sexy is Megan Fox anyway? Have become a huge fan of hers. And alright, her interviews are a bit odd -she seems incapable of conducting herself normally- but whatever. It just makes her more interesting I guess. She is my girl crush :)

3) It is, I have decided, completely idiotic to become overly enthusiastic over something. Or to yearn for something so badly you waste hours and hours for months over it. But is it really surprising that I did just that? Waste my time over something completely stupid and useless? It's like my calling card.

Hi! Do you know of a new way waste my time and/or depress me? Call *********!

It is especially idiotic if the thing you have been waiting for so long... is to watch a movie. Vallee des Fleurs was so disappointing. Well alright, so I haven't actually finished watching it, but so far (30 minutes into the movie) it is nothing but heaving bosoms and well sculpted derrieres. It's like an extremely bad ss/hg fan fic. The type where the author has obviously had one too many Firewhiskeys and was probably struck by Eros's arrow in some inappropriate place. You know the type... throbbing blah blah's and emerald green satin sheets that glimmer in the soft moonlight that shines incandescently through Gothic-styled arches, smooth and curved as the voluptuous arc's of Aphrodite's limbs.

And you know, you just KNOW that these idiots see Snape, not as a greasy haired git but as some pompous, women-romancing type (note the plurality) fool. AND it's like they just discovered the wondrous powers of an online thesaurus.

I went of track. Hm, so aside from the offensive bums and breasts, there was the whole stealing of luck through one's shadows. I guess I just expected to be blown away by an epic Asian romance with a slight LotR fantasy thing going on. Sigh. But this is life after all, so we must learn to expect the worst.

a dancing demon

I cant' wait to go. I really, really, really can't. Except I'm not to keen on leeches. So the plan is to arm myself with bags and bags of salt. Sea salt... table salt... rock salt...

I've never ever even been camping before so this is like BAM! being pushed into the deep end. Well, Plop! actually.

No.

Splash!

I'm re-reading all of HP before I watch HBP.

And... I miss Buffy. The post-Faith, pre-Riley episodes.

when all is said and done - trapt

A new beginning. A fresh start. A brand new day and all that.

where will i be?

i guess i'm on the run,

and time is catching up behind me.

But then why do I keep going back to back then? I guess because fantasising about how things could be makes me feel happy, even if just for a moment.

Why dwell on the unhappy past? Not helping that I'm listening to Trapt all over again. I used to love them, or well, their songs. But um, not the most cheerful of bands. Plus, you know how music sort of acts as a memory trigger? Yeah. I used to listen to them obsessively over and over again while reading angst-ridden ss/hg stories online. So it's kind of making me feel all... blah. Can't stop though.

On to happier (and more noteworthy) things. My prom was held last night. The prom itself was really good. Was a million times better than my secondary school prom, possibly the saddest affair I have ever attended. Highlights were the teachers' performance; they were so adorable and entertaining. And of course taking pictures with some of the people I care most about. Don't know much about the food although it looked pretty good. Was much too nervous to eat because had to go on stage for prom king/queen nominee challenges. And for that I have to thank my classmates who decided to put my name down on a day I was absent from class. I think they thought it would be hilariously funny. Stomach ache, rolling around in their seats, kind of funny.

But it was not as bad as I expected it to turn out. I didn't pass out on stage or anything, thank goodness. And they were very supportive with the screaming and all :)

Oooh... and a formal, most sincere apology to Amrit. I hope I didn't cause him any future spinal problems during the whole sitting-on-him-while-he-did-push-ups challenge.

On to the pictures then.

Have you seen a prom king-ier/queen-ier pair? We should have won I tell ya.

'Cause she's so hot. I got horny.

<3

oh, the simple need

Exams are over babeh.

Am so relieved. Finals are weeks away. Hmm... am a happy bunny right now. Especially because I bought myself the most gorgeous dark green jeans ever.

And tomorrow? More shopping :)

I thought this was hilariously cute.

all alone with the sheep

Sa has left. :( For Trinity. Said my bye's yesterday but woke up feeling miserable. It's like everyone is leaving. By September everyone will be on opposite ends of the earth. Even I may be flyflyflying away to Ireland. But recently I've been seriously considering Australia. I think I'm willing to do the basic degree/extra 9 months thingy. After all I have family there. And what is life without family and friends?

It's nice that we got to spend more time than usual together the past week. We were able to have in depth discussions concerning love-handles, the whole stabbing incident (hilarious :D), Richard and David. It was pretty awesome. So understandably I was pretty torn up today.

Blaah. I hate it when I get into one of these moods.

It helped when I went over to Mim's earlier today though. We bummed around but it made me much happier. I have wonderful friends. I hope that 10/20/30/40... years from now we'll still be vegetating with one another :p.

not as blue as dr draken

I didn't study at all these here CNY hols. I know I’m going to regret it like crazy on Monday but for now I can’t be bothered.

This past week, condensed:

a) the acquisition of a brand new pretty purple sweater that is just sooo soft. So soft it’s fun to stroke whenever I’m bored.

b) buttering like, a millionkazillion egg sandwiches with Vanu for Mim’s birthday. I now understand why men make better chefs. It’s all about the manpower babeh. The folding and smashing and crunching and battering. It’s back-breaking work. But regardless, Vanu and I had oodles of fun. Preparing simple food does not require that many brain cells so she and I had plenty of time to discuss loads of stuff. That was fun and… illuminating. We discovered that she is much too nice for her own good and I am either completely mental or as devoted as a puppy. Fairly pathetic, but there you go. At any rate, I can’t act to save my soul so I don’t understand why my own personal jukebox keeps playing the same tune. :(

c) Mim’s surprise birthday picnic. Woke her up at 7 something after she had only 2 hours of sleep. Then blindfolded her, put a green afro on her head and took her to Lake Gardens, where she sat around blindfolded for about 30 minutes because lots of people were late.

d) my Ielts. I screwed up the speaking. Went blank for a good 30 seconds. It would be lovely to get a band score of 8.5 or 9. Yes it would.

e) CNY as Mimzy’s. Lunch that followed through with tea. And yes, yes, I must agree that the girl has better taste in boys than me. :p Salud babe.

hellooo mrs ross, well helloooooo mr rachel

How lovely would it be to live in a castle? With all the towers, extensive labyrinthine dungeons and possibly... a courtyard? And a moat of course, for protection a stuff. That would be beyond awesome. But what are the odds that I will end up living in one?

Well, never mind. I can always dream. And since I'm dreaming, it wouldn't hurt to dream up Severus Snape by my side. He would, I've decided, have Chad Kroeger's voice.

I would give anything for this.

'cause we all just wanna be big rock stars

Is it very juvenile to colour a Disney cartoon character at my age? It's just that Hades is so absolutely adorable and I had had HAD to have a picture of him. So I spent like, 2 hours drawing and then another 2ish, colouring. It was very satisfying. I haven't had so much fun since I first discovered devianart.

After the whole Hades obsession culminated at the point where I practically turned my whole house upside down looking for a set of colour pencils, I decided it was about time I rewatched Hercules. And honestly, it never occurred to me before that the Hades portrayed by Disney is blatant mischaracterization of the real Hades. Firstly, Hades is NOT evil. Ruler of the Underworld, yes. But that just means he's somewhat melancholy and grim. And aside from that, if Hades were really about to wage war with someone like Herc, there is no way he would lose. Obviously.

Anyway, I just got to thinking... Disney should have written a song for him to sing. Judge Frollo gets to belt out his tune in Hunchback, Hades should be given the same opportunity because let's face it, you can't help but love any villainous-type that sings his heart out. I mean, how else does one explain Marilyn Manson's extremely large fan base?